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整理 总结

整理一下心情, 整理一下思绪.

说说前两个星期的事吧? 之前在忙课外活动的事情. 只能说真的很累人. 感觉上都快晕倒了. 过后的那天, 把面试搞砸了. 心情不是很好. 在加上原本是1点就该开始的, 拖到2点多才开始. 也有些其它人要赶着先走也就拖到5点多才轮到我. 一整天呆在学校很累. 结果也就没去同学的生日派对. 只能说真的是一个不是那么好的一天啊.

那一天的我, 从新学期的开始后感受到了第一次的后悔. 结果和能力形成正比. 但内心的欲望却在啃食着自己, 是这样吗?

同学们之间的问题应该算是淡下来了. 但心里清楚的明白问题仍然在那里. 因为某些同学之间的问题, 周围的人都要小心翼翼. 原本是一个同学敏感的独角戏却演变成了几乎每个人都参与的大型演出. 每个人在都在演戏不是吗? 怕自己的朋友不开心, 怕被孤立, 怕变成被针对. 知道同学之间的小团体会有很多冲突, 大家都在努力的上演着大团体和睦融融的样子. 竟是那么的虚伪. 演戏累人, 真相伤人.

慢慢的知道不能把一些事情看得太重, 别把所有的感情和信任放进去. 看见什么就当得到什么. 不需要看得太仔细, 不需要了解太多. 如果你肯花心思地演戏, 你演什么我就信什么. 我会真心的相信你们.

因为我宁愿你对我好.

The truth is,

I never really knew about anything in the first place.

清清好介绍!

清清好介绍:

He's just not that into you
The way they film the movie is very special.

"MUST WATCH AH!!! CHING CHING HAO JIE SHAO WOR!!"

跟清清聊天时真好.

每一句都有办法让我笑开怀.

不但但有清清好介绍哦, 还送了我一句:

事能知足心常惬，人到无求品自高

不要再去想那些我不应该插手的事吧.

不要再去分心于别人的看法.

不要再去钻牛角尖.

看开 想开 放开

我想要的

开心 自在 专心 决心 自己

对号入座

都快开学两个星期了. 也感受到压力快把我逼得喘不过气. 很多东西也变了. "变"这个字也是我最常听到的.

感觉情感友谊善意. 有什么东西是可以维持不变的吗?

哭的原因应该不会去对任何人说. 只能说那些根本不该掉的眼泪让我很尴尬. 只能怪自己太脆弱. 也不该去对号入座, 让自己想太多. 所以说, 即使多么的心虚也要装的若无其事.

成绩自己大概算了算. 这学期最少也要拿gpa3.5, 才能得到今年gpa3的目标.

累, 我最近很常有这个感觉.

累, 也是我最近常用的借口.

Personality Disorder Test

Disorder Rating Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: High Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Happy girl wanna be.

Last day of holiday and I am happy enough for the long break.

Think back on how I spent this long holiday. I think I had CCA on the first week, Class Chalet and meet ups on the second week, slept a lot on the third week, worked on the fourth and fifth week, and lots of shopping on the sixth week. I can’t believe that shopping actually does make me feel tired, very tired.

It seems like there is more to come after this holiday. I have got to remind myself of everything in order to push myself further. Everything. This is when blogging becomes useful. A reminder to self. I remembered someone kept mentioning to me that the stress, push and motivation need to come from one. Sometimes I feel like asking her that how does she knows that I am not having any stress? This actually proves that process doesn’t mean anything when other people only look at the ending. Hah. This line actually flash across my mind: Stop dwelling on this, do you want to return to your shell and be that well-known emo-kia?

Where is the positive girl now?